mostly just because my memories seem more like things i made up in my head these days.

it's just not the same, you know?

like when you were a kid
the first time you stood at the top of your swing set
told the world it was a pirate ship
but didn't really...

believe it.

and you knew
right then
you would never actually believe it was a pirate ship again.

there's a moment like that for everything
for everything that goes from mattering to not mattering anymore.

today it was the moment when you looked at me
and your eyes just stayed sad.

instead of going from sad to happy.
or from tired to happy.
or from angry to happy.
or from bored to happy.
or from happy to happier.

they just stayed sad.